FORE!

minigolf with moses and mandi at sentosa was good fun. we did some messed up course with ridiculous slopes and obstacles. some of them were un-conquerable and if not for the limit of 15 strokes we gave ourselves, we'd probably still be there hahas. 18 holes later, it was back to the train station to grab a drink at the 7-eleven. unfortunately, moses the man got ever so slightly tipsy after a huge 500ml of TigerBeer. yep, all 5% of its alcoholic content :) haha

headed back to mandi's area for a hearty botak lunch and andrea got her broom and wallet from moses, and me and mandi. happy belated! pictionary and mandi's place was preceeded by warped conversations between moses and andrea with regards to push-pops, sucking licking and the like of which you dear reader are only too able to imagine. haha

word checks on urban dictionary was pretty good too. educated now aren't we? searches included golden shower, chocolate starfish, bagpipe, cream puff and pie, and pearl necklace. go have fun searching them yourself if u want!

A man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed.As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation.They talked about so many things and various subjects.When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said: "I don't believe that God exists.""Why do you say that?" asked the customer. "Well, you just have to go out in the street to realize that God doesn't exist.Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people? Would there be abandoned children?If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain.I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things."

The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't want to start an argument. The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop.Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long, stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard. He looked dirty and unkempt.

The customer turned back and entered the barber shop againand he said to the barber: "You know what? Barbers do not exist.""How can you say that?" asked the surprised barber."I am here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!"

"No!" the customer exclaimed. "Barbers don't exist becauseif they did, there would be no people with dirty long hair and untrimmed beards, like that man outside."

"Ah, but barbers DO exist! That's what happens when people do not come to me.""Exactly!" affirmed the customer. "That's the point! God, too, DOES exist!

That's what happens when people do not go to Him and don't look to Him for help. That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."



i got this in an email from my grandmother. and i think its a nice story. but, i dont agree with it. i find it hard to believe that out of the many thousands upon thousands of people who've passed away in various accidents and natural disasters, none of them turned to god and look to him for help. there must have been many who were fervent and practising belivers of their respective faiths, who still unfrotunately died in whichever tragedy. and its a point which many people choose to bring up in attempts to sway someone from their faith. god saves doesn't he? well what was he doing while they suffocated, drowned or burnt to death? he obviously doesn't exist.

you can argue it in many ways, to prove and show that god just doesn't exist nad that he's not real. for example, mandi once asked me whether it was possible for god, to create a stone he couldn't lift. a paradox of omnipotency that's pretty convincing as proof that god cant be omnipotent, and hence he cant be god and so he wouldn't exist. rest assured mandi remains as faithful as she ever was. so yes, there're many strong arguments against the idea of a god.

but to me, i don't think its that important that i know for a fact that there is this god that i pray to and whom i believe can somehow sometimes affect my life by some degree. If at the end of my life, my supernatural self discovers that there really is no god, i wouldn't feel cheated or disappointed just because i lived my whole life believing that there was a god helping me in some way. or that i based some of my morals or decisions in life on my faith. because in the end, my belief- founded or unfounded, helped me lead a better life for myself and i would have been better off with that possibly false notion of a god as well. whats to feel cheated about?

i heard recently about a friend who actually stopped going to church because he was convinced that there is no god. which is sad because no matter how capable you think you are, we are as humans inherently flawed. hence there will be many times when we need to reach out beyond ourselves in order to accomplish something, and for some, this would be when the notion of a mightier being than us comes in useful, as a means of motivating ourselves. and so for my dear friend who lost track of the meaning of the word belief, it will be in these times that he may be caught and perhaps slightly helpless.

God bless you my friend.

BIRTHDAY TWINS

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MANDI AND MILLI :) :)

have a great birthday, the two of you are officially legal to drink drive. brilliant how the government thinks eh? anyways, i forsee a day of surprises for the both of you so have fun!

prelims are looking decent.

done a huge bit of shopping this week for birthday presents, both current and belated :) so mandi milli andrea stelli you all have presents not to worry haha and many apologies for leaving your andrea and stelli's presents so late. but i'm pretty sure you'll like them from me and mandi. give you soon.

happy birthday again twins!

5 more mins please?

haha break's over. a lil too fast perhaps. i know people who were hitting the books not long after the last paper, haha but i told myself i'd get started once school started. like it was some sort of official marker for study that would somehow compel me to do work. unfortunately not.

mandi's birthday on friday! she wants to do some k-box thing just for the fun of it. haha should be interesting. of course its milli's too! haha didnt forget :)

i told myself i'd get started studying today. i even wanted to study physics, just so it'd be easier to get started, but alas!

how sleep and the ps3 call.
i answered, obligingly.
DawnDuskthenNightFall.
then MSN- endlessly.

A futile attempt at a poem.
which left readers going hohum.
at my lousy poem.
-have u read 'em?

okaay. that was lousy then. darn, lots of guys are starting on their driving. mandi says she'll start driving before i do... which.. isn't actually a bad thing. kinda like a chaffeur and date rolled into one haha.

alright, think i'll go try and start on physics. cheers!

hm. 5 mins lah huh?

if only

things could always go your way. and i'm not talking about selfish desires either, like that car or that license or those shoes clothes grades. what if u wanted something to go your way, because you honestly think that its the best thing that could happen, for everybody. an altruistic desire if u like.

there are many things i'd like to change. for now its mostly people. for example,

You need to have more confidence in yourself.
You need to be more mature about family.
You need to learn where to draw the line with your pranks.
You need to open up more to good friends.
You need more self-control with your words and actions.
You need to be more accommodating to other people's imperfections.
You need to more independent and realistic.
You need to be more compassionate to the reality of situations.
You need to stop trying to grow up so fast and be more sure of yourself.
You need to be more understanding and less defensive.
You need to be less assertive and less concerned about what other's think of you.

yupp. many many things about people i'd like to change. myself included above. maybe you'll ask what right i have to go all preachy. well, as much right as you do i guess. if u really think someone you know is screwing their lives up a lil, then go help him sort himself out. it'll do everyone some good. even if it doesn't really prove to be succesfull.

" accept him as he is ". commonly heard no doubt. and used most often to resist a personal change. " God does! " normally follows. but i've no doubt that lucifer's as willing to accept him too if he screws up his life. better help the poor fella out right?

yup. go put on MJ's Change the World too if it helps ya get started.

if only.

that was a hell lava

BREAK. prelims over since friday and there's been some excellent R&R the past few days. sleep. rugby after physics paper-- that was awesome. and insanely tiring. ached and still aching for a long while more haha. changi airport popeye's. watching the planes touch down. musing about garuda airlines and its lack of public confidence. a trip down to the East side of town to MJ's crib. haha mm lazing in his room. qutie shiok listening to that white guy james dean. then to the bazaar. whoa that one i've never been to. kinda like pasar malam, but alot more elaborate. and a lot of food too haha.

rest of the weekend had some shopping lazing around, catching up on tv family PS3 haha pretty darn good. and soccer today was good. though i was slightly immobile from rugby.

yep. prelims are over and soon it'll be time to start studying again for A's. the "only A's" is coming indeed in about six weeks time. take some time to chill. in fact, giveyourself a wholeweek before you get back into the grind. then make the rest of the time well worth it. i think 5 weeks, for anyone good enough to get promoted to j2, is enough time to really pull it all together. if u work hard, of course.

many bangs and jacks the past few days. so many that mandi claims they cant all be remembered. must be me letting my bully guard down after prelims haha. its good to unwind. afterall, you might as well enjoy the calm before the storm right?

MEGA MUGGING MADNESS.

whew. one week worth of non stop studying with 5 hours sleep a day, just to be able to ace the exams of the coming week.

HAHA. RIGHT.


nah just playing with all your guilt soaked minds :) i managed to catch two movies since the end of part 1 of exams, have dinner with the family more than twice and play some PS3 , hey its the holidays. i did study of course, but ah well, still doesn't feel really up to par. tomorrow's math. i hope it wont be too tedious or demoralising. its only prelims, but its comforting to have a decent grade on that report card before starting on that final final stretch.

i realise. that my relationship with mandi has improved. :D not that it was terrible before. but when real squabbles, and what used to be real causes for like major upsets come about every now and then, the situation quells alot faster and more peacefully than it used to. thankyou mandi!

meanwhile, someone's been looting my money. idiot.

all the best to those with double 3hour papers. its only 6 hours of exam. mm goodnight then.